For the month of February I have been exploring Selective Mutism. In this first week I have explored some of my childhood memories. I have written about the way I felt being selective mute; the things I wished I could have said; the shame I sometimes felt and more.
How I am embracing the freedom of speech!
Today is a little different. Today, I will bring all the posts together from this past week – and I will also share with you my first ever podcast! I am truly excited about this – because despite the fact that speaking has been the biggest hurdle I have had to clear in my life, I have realised over the past few years how great it can feel to speak from a place of passion and purpose.
I won’t lie to you – it also scares the you-know-what out of me – but nothing can compare to the feelings of accomplishment that I get when I have spoken to people from a place where I feel like me.
Here it is – my first ever podcast. It’s all about the process I went through when I realised that public speaking was calling me. Dive in and listen (it’s only ten minutes) – and if you’ve missed the rest of my posts this week, read on for a brief summary …
Exploring Selective Mutism – making sense of my memories.
- Here’s why I’m so quiet – this post introduces selective mutism, and I share the story of how it evolved for me when I was two or three years old.
This is how it felt when I couldn’t talk – Most people have no idea what people with selective mutism go through when our words are frozen. In this post I share a couple of memories of how it felt for me.
What I wish I could have said when I couldn’t – Even though I was selective mute, and I couldn’t talk in many situations, I couldn’t understand why people would describe me as quiet. I was often asked ‘Why?’ and in this post I give my answer.
If only I could just say something – There was a point in my childhood where I realised that I didn’t want to be different. I wanted to be just like everyone else and talk. This motivation lead to me speaking – but not for the right reasons.
What if you can’t ask when you need to go – A problem that is often not thought of regarding children with selective mutism is the toilet. Many parents and children fear an accident at school – and for good reason. I share a memory of this that I have never shared with anybody.
- Here’s why I want to share my stories with you – Writing is something like a lifeline to me; my connection to who I am. I love it – and in this post I explain why.
Next week I will be discussing more of the things that I have done in my life despite (and with some, perhaps because of) selective mutism. It is important to me that as people we do not dwell on our insufficiencies, but instead notice the goodness we have to offer.
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